I'm not quite sure what happened, but one evening this week I came home and I felt different. I was going about my routine, when I stopped and realized "I don't feel crappy". It was like all of a sudden my head was clear. I could think. I wish I knew what combination of circumstances led to it, so I can repeat it in the future. But either way, I'll take it.
I don't mean to dwell on this whole relationship thing, but really it's what has been on my mind for the past week. I don't even think it was the ending of this last relationship that had me so down. I think it was the culmination of everything. All of the change in the last six months. The stress of school. The upcoming holiday season. And generally feeling lost.
The past few days have been full of seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I wrote my first of two exams tonight. I'm half way done. I saw P last night for the first time since we broke up. It was good. The tying up of loose ends and the beginning of a new friendship. Acknowledging and thanking him for showing me how well I can be treated.
So something good happened. And when I really think about it, many good things have happened. And they'll continue to happen. It doesn't mean bad things won't happen too, but things will always get better.